Tuesday, October 19, 2010

More on common themes

I bet you can tell the two big things that have been on my mind recently. I'm sure you're right - food and lights. I have a few things to talk about; one of which are the lights as I finish up my last doctor visit.

To my stupidity, I haven't used my intermittent FMLA yet. Yes, I know it's me and my own problem. I was hoping that I would feel a little more comfortable calling out with the iFMLA, but for some reason, I still have a very hard time. It's not my boss either. He would be really good about me taking time off if I needed to and having the iFMLA doesn't hurt my attendance or number of occurrences at work either.

A lot of the times I'll go into work with the intention of completing one thing that desperately needs to get done and then end up staying for the entire day as just one more thing keeps coming up. Two other dilemmas I give myself is that I don't want to take my meds before I go in, although sometimes I have to, because they will make me very dense and I still have trouble advertising how I am feeling. I'm sure this makes me come across as very obtuse and aloof when I am like this. It's probably also not good for my career or current job status either, but how do I get past that? It's really a rhetorical question; I know it's an obstacle that I have to work out. I am actually slowly getting better about taking care of myself, but I still have a way to go.

When I was at my last doctor's visit, I mentioned to her that I haven't used any iFMLA yet. Of course she gave me one of her funny looks, particularly because I had already given her my charts since my last visit. I proceeded to tell her that I am extremely happy to have the iFMLA especially since my company announced that we will be moving sometime next year and my light situation is currently up in the air.

At that point, we started to walk across the hall from her office to the examination room. She mentioned how she doesn't like the fluorescent lights in their hallway; she is also a Migraineur. As I looked up, I blurted out that at least the lights were covered. She couldn't believe that our lights at work are not covered. Uncovered lights are really not good for Migraineurs and being extremely light sensitive makes it even worse. She immediately said she could write a letter. I let her know that we still don't know where we are going or what the lighting situation will be like and that my boss is already in meetings about it, but I would let her know if I need one.

It now looks like I have a new project at work. I just found out there is someone who is out on leave due to Migraines. It sounds like she knows what her rights are at work which is a good thing, but I'd like to make sure she is getting the right help and education for herself around this disease. I'd also like to let her know that I am there if she ever needs to talk to someone who understands. I definitely think it helps to talk with someone who knows what we go through.

After I found out my just headaches were really Migraines, my boss would hook me up with his wife. I could ask her all of the silly questions that nobody else would follow. It would help because she would recognize where these questions were coming from and answer them appropriately. I really appreciated her time. Now, I have my internet friends and this blog to help me get through my challenging times. Thank you!

In keeping with another common theme of mine, I'd like to express that my thoughts and prayers are with Eric Legrand, his family and teammates. He is a Rutgers football player who was paralyzed during their football game over the weekend after making a tackle during a kickoff in the fourth quarter. I pray he can make a fast recovery and hope he will walk with his team again.



WinnyNinny PooPoo said...

The hardest thing is listening to your body and your head, and saying - today is a day where I stay home and take my meds. I tend to work too long myself, and if I can make the commute - why not stay? My HA doc says I need to be more "mindful" and take meds sooner and it has helped.

MigrainePuppet said...

Exactly. I know what I need to do, it's just so hard to do the right thing. I am working on it/me.